I wish

I wish I was different
A different body
And a pretty dress
A different name
And not such a mess

I wish my voice would call
For those who beautifully fall

I wish my soul could come up to my mouth
And show itself to everyone around

I wish I was the representation
Of what represents my endless damnation

I wish I could maybe finally fall
because If I didn't really accomplish my goal
The only way I'd go
Is down the rabbit hole

I wish at least it didn't hurt so much
And all it did was touch my heart

I wish I wasn't so delusional

I wish I didn't wish so much
Because once you wish you never make it back
It only brings you back to your thoughts
And it only makes it worse

I wish this night wouldn't make me so sad

I wish I didn't write poems
And be what I wish for instead